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Weathervane Witches Edition: Power Without Apology

• Medium Nicole • Season 1 • Episode 158

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The room goes quiet when someone tells the truth: the fluffy stuff isn’t changing us. We trade comfort for transformation and ask what power actually feels like in a woman’s body—how it vibrates through ritual, how it steadies in the spine when you stop apologizing, and how it holds compassion without shrinking. Nicole shares the jolt of leading a raw activation at a Mexico retreat and the aftershock of wondering if “too much” is actually exactly right. Adriana reframes soft and strong as boundaries with love. Jess unpacks channeling, yoga teacher training, and the courage to lead beyond her local template. Rachel claims witchcraft, sacred rage, and the moment she stopped making herself digestible.

We dig into why circles can feel beautiful yet incomplete, why copycat culture breeds safety over change, and why depth does not need to be mean to be powerful. The conversation moves from business realities—naming a gift that refuses one label, building offers that are more initiation than inspiration—to embodiment: weightlifting roars, road-opening rituals, and rest as sacred integration after big energetic work. Along the way we confront “crab mentality,” the social reflex that pulls climbers back, and share a clearer map: different realities can coexist, and not every room deserves your frequency.

If you’ve felt alone carving your own lane, this one’s a hand on your back. Borrow our questions to find your edge: Where are you performing? Where are you hiding? What would power look like if you stopped being digestible? We’re getting ready for our sacred feminine retreat and holding each other to the fire—no more safe templates, only what actually transforms. If that’s your language, press play, subscribe, and leave a review with the moment that moved you most. Then share this with a friend who’s done playing small.

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Nicole Pope is an internationally-trained Evidential Medium and Soul Integration Guide dedicated to helping others reconnect with their higher self, awaken their gifts, and remember who they truly are.

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SPEAKER_04:

Hello, everyone. Welcome to the latest edition of the Weatherman Witches reconvening to talk about power and reclaiming our power and what that means for each of us. And so I'm so grateful we're all here. Just a reminder, I am Nicole Pope. We also have Adriana Keefe, Rachel Phelan, and Jess. Oh my gosh, are we blanking on your last name, Jess? Bridge. That's right. How did I forget that? It's such a yoga move, too. Oh my God. Making everybody die in the first 10 minutes of this. Jesus Christ. Welcome to Nicole's edition of the Weather Van Wishes. Y'all are fucked. That's all I gotta say. So this podcast idea, um, again, everything will be in the show notes in terms of who we are and links and all that jazz, but we're saving you a little time up front because I think this is such a meaty topic. And this idea of reclaiming our power came to me from a recent retreat that I co-hosted in Mexico and watching a lot of the other teachers present their amazing presentations. This was a mediumship retreat, but all of it felt really fluffy. Like all of it felt very interesting and educational, but it wasn't transformative. And as I took center stage at that retreat, the energy was palpable. And I really took my two-hour time slot to really dive in and create a very transformative, deep connection with Mother Earth and with where we were in Mexico and the connection between the community that had met there very far away from home. And it really made me reflect back on in the moment where I hosted that retreat in my two hours, I felt so out of place compared to the other teachers because what I was delivering was so deep and so raw and so real and so transformative compared to everybody else. And it made me realize that I almost wish I didn't do it because it felt like it was too much. It was too powerful, it was too outside of the box of the norm of the metaphysical leaders that I've surrounded myself with. And it really got me thinking about how I personally minimize my power in this space. And I don't reclaim who I am and who I'm supposed to be. And I apologize for how I show up in spaces because I show up so real and authentically, and I equate it to slapping people across the face, to be honest with you. And so I wanted to talk this topic with all of you today, with the Weather Van, which is today, to talk about how we reclaim our power as women in this space. Because that is really the source of why this group came together, is because we all have these deep inspirational drives to transform and change the world and become the best versions of ourselves. And yet, I gotta be honest, we continue to play small. So I wanted to challenge us all today and how this year has allowed us to do this, how how we can really step forward and reclaim our power and be truly authentic and honest about where we hold ourselves back and what our potential is and where we're going. So why don't we why don't we start there unless anyone has any comments they want to add before we but I'd love to ask everybody what's what's your take on this? What's your definition of power? How do you want to respond to what I just said? I feel like I'm gonna go, who are we going first?

SPEAKER_00:

Um, I can take it. Okay. Um it's so interesting. These are things that I think about. I mean, all this past year I've been saying like power reclamation is like the thing I'm working through, but there's so many layers to that. And when you were messaging us in our group chat about this, and then you sent that podcast episode from the shamanic podcast, and they were talking about um, there's so many beautiful ceremonies and women's circles and all of that going around now, which is amazing. And I can't say I've ever truly been to one where the woman running it was fully in their power. And as they're talking about it, they're talking about like these fluffy, softer kind of ceremonies, which there is a time and a place for. I think some women are here to bring that more gentle, nurturing energy. And then some of us, like myself, we host those things, or like my retreat I held last year, it was everything the women needed. And I left still being like, it still wasn't everything I wanted to give. And I could not figure out what it was. And that episode you sent us, and where you were talking about this power versus the fluff, I was like, that's fucking it. I want to be like tribal dancing under the moonlight and screaming and howling at the moon. And I want them to feel the cells in their body vibrating with power. And I think I'm one of the very few who I know in this area who can step into that in the type of circles that I host. So going forward, I'm really getting curious about what is it? How is it that I'm going to bring this forward? And do I have the balls to do it? Because a lot of women who come into my world and come to my in-person circles, especially, are very new to this. So, like I'm playing with uh, well, is there one version of the circle that is soft and an opener for newbies? Do I host almost like a another level of one for those who are like ready to fucking get down and dirty, get in it? I don't know. But that hit me. I've been thinking about it ever since listening to that episode. That's so fucking true. That's why when I go to so many circles, I'm like, this is so beautiful. And I still leave with so much inside that hasn't been released. And that's what I see when I host for people too. I'm like, there's still something missing. So that was a beautiful reflection that you gave me.

SPEAKER_04:

I agree. And I think that's why I shy away from a lot of in-person circles and events because I don't, it needs to be deeper or I'm not doing it. Oh my gosh, I love that. Jess, what are you thinking?

SPEAKER_01:

Um, well, first of all, I'm having deja vu like what you just said. So I'm like, well, this is exactly what we're supposed to be talking about today. And it's super relevant for all of us. And it's really interesting because until you brought it up last week in our group text, Nicole, we have not really overtly talked about this, but I think it's something we've been sort of like individually grappling with in our like respective corners. Um, so I love that we're getting this out in the open. And I think that really speaks to even like what being powerful is. And it's really about ripping things apart, right? It's about like just being so authentically like in the alignment, so much yourself and so connected to the essence of whatever you are meant to bring into this world that it's like you don't water it down, you just put it out there and like like literally make people choke on it, right? And like change is so uncomfortable. Like, think about even um if you start a new supplement routine, right? Like you start taking supplements and you get nauseous, right? Like you have to like maybe take some anti-nause medication, you have to eat, you have to drink more water, you have to do a lot of things to make it work for you, but you know it's good for you, right? So I think about it like that. Like, like it's not meant for everyone. It's not meant, well, I think it is meant for everyone, but not everyone is going to be ready, right? So that's where people are like, oh, you need to tone it down. And I've been getting that my whole life. Like, you're intimidating, you're too intense. Um, you know, what you offer isn't gonna work in this community, um, where your vision for your business is really, you know, that's cute, but like that's not what sells, right? And it's like I have believed that and I have let what has historically maybe been true in business dictate what I I actually believe is possible. And I am really like it's like reparenting yourself, like really coaching myself to understand that that just is not true. That is just a lie that I have told myself to make things easier, to make me not level up, to make me just stay where at least I know what to expect. Like I make people a little bit uncomfortable, but like I'm kind of towing the line, right? So um I think just historically, what has worked has brainwashed me. And I've been over the last couple of months peppering in like workshops and stuff and different offerings that I feel really aligned with. And I'm like, oh my gosh, look at this. This event sold out. Look at this, people want more of this. Like people are craving this kind of energy, and they're not the people that I see on a day-to-day basis. They're new people coming in, right? So it's like, I don't believe in the theory that, like, you know, open the doors and and they will come. Um, I think you do you have to work to manifest that whole concept of downloading and then integrating um that Shakti energy. But I think it's just like such a pivotal moment. And the fact that this organically came up in conversation and now we get to talk about it, is um just so awesome and like priming us for the new year.

SPEAKER_05:

Agree. Sorry, Rachel.

SPEAKER_02:

That took a minute. Um, I love this conversation. I think this is this is when you when you brought it up, Nicole, it was so like emphatic in my solar plexus that I was like, this is a conversation that like we need to have. And I've written so many things down. So when you were like, when you talked about minimizing yourself, like that is something that we're conditioned to as women. Like I was I was having this discussion with my husband about it one day because I was like explaining how I was nervous about going into a new space and taking up space. And he was like, You just go in and set up and you do it. And I was like, that's very good for you to say that. But usually for me, being a woman and making myself exposed is dangerous. And then I said that that out loud, and I was like, but why? You know, and then I've been sitting with it a lot, and I had my best friend visit my psyche one day in meditation, and he was like, uh, what did he say? Fuck being digestible. Let him choke on it. Perhaps the gag is what's needed for the purge. And I was like, okay, so I'm gonna stop making myself small. I'm gonna start taking up space because real life is dirty, real life is heavy, real life is messy, so is healing, so is existing. But when we only do like the very top soft, feminine, pink, very surface level stuff, like that's literally spiritually bypassing every single traumatic thing we have gone through, every single negative experience that's happened. That's like robbing the power of that and putting it into making it palatable for someone else. Fuck that. Power is primal, you know. So there's like there's scream, there's rage, there's sacred rage. Like, you know, I just I've started weightlifting. So I keep like thinking about how like when I deadlift, I have to like scream to get it up. And like how good that feels after I leave. And I'm like, wow, I feel like I could read 16 people today. And then spirit's really clear. And like the more I tap into taking up space, being less digestible, not giving a shit if my readings land anymore, like just filming and posting. I've felt freer, I've felt clearer, I've felt more connected. Um, with that, I've also felt crazier, but that's just working through the deconstruction. Um, I was, I did, I did a workshop in November and I was talking to there was a man sitting next to me, and he was like, Wow, I just I just love how you like look at someone, you can just pull it out and just you know, you're like, here, look at this. This is what you need to work on. I was like, Yeah, they call me Jenga, you know, and I I feel bad because sometimes I pull something out of someone and they fall apart. And he goes, Well, that's not your responsibility. Maybe they needed to hear it, maybe they need to fall apart. And the way I had never considered that until that very moment. And so I spent the next hour and a half really sitting with the fact that like I make myself so digestible. I make myself so small. I don't have and I do spend so much time talking about power reclamation in my professional work and in my personal life, that it was like this last big piece of like who, what makes me me, I'm not giving to people. And then I'm feeling frustrated that I'm misunderstood. Well, maybe if I stop diluting myself, I won't be misunderstood. I won't be understood by many, but I'll be understood by the people who I want to fuck with.

SPEAKER_04:

I love that so much. I love that so much amazing nuggets of gold. I want to, Adrian, any thoughts? I think I'm gonna shift the direction a little.

SPEAKER_00:

I was just thinking about how much my editor Casey is a thousand percent gonna take that gag clip and make it into the the intro or the social media clip.

SPEAKER_01:

That was fucking awesome.

SPEAKER_04:

It's truth. Truth. So I want to talk about the journey of reclaiming our power. And it's less about the how, but I think there in each of us, I've seen us over the past, you know, year and a few months now that we've been, you know, officially sanctioned as a group. I feel like we could set up like a nonprofit, um, that we have personally come into our own power over this time frame. And so I want to talk a little bit about that evolution and maybe we start first with going around the table about you know, where have you struggled to own your own power or what holds you back from reclaiming that power or or giving people your power now? Jess, you went there a little bit. Um, but I'd love to hear, I think, Jess, you mind if I go to you? I'd love to hear more about where have where have you historically held back um and what stops you from from being in that full power of yourself.

SPEAKER_01:

Yeah, um, I think that specifically, well, let me start with how this group has helped me. Um, because I think that before I started hanging around with all of you, I never considered what I did to be channeling. I didn't really like have language for it. Um, and then there was a moment, it wasn't even like immediately upon like, you know, learning more about what you all do, but I was teaching one day and I was afterwards, I was like, I don't even know what I said. Like it's just like coming through me. And I was like, um, oh, that's that's channeling. Like it's like you kind of like revealed that for me. Um, and that just kind of opened like the whole can of worms. Like, I think that reminder of like, oh, I have been really shrinking to kind of fit in, you know, with like the geographic community, with uh, like I mentioned before, kind of what has historically worked with my business, which was not necessarily the more kind of spiritually based classes. Um and then, you know, I think it's important to just put out there that we have such a copycat culture, and I think that everyone is taking something that they've seen and replicating it or you know, putting their spin on it. So I think that's where we get this, you know, to use the words that we've already kind of thrown out, like these kind of fluffy sort of programs and stuff. And I think like maybe, maybe that is a gateway. Um, maybe, maybe it is important, but I think what it is, I wrote some stuff down. I just I wrote down Kali. I'm thinking Kali energy, just like flashing things down to like rebuild them new. Like that is feminine energy, right? So I think we have this mix-up of kind of what we're doing is more coming into balance. It's not swinging the pendulum way in the opposite direction, it's redefining what is feminine. And it's uncomfortable because we're told that we have to fit in this box and do things a certain way and be soft. But, you know, and and even this is like I'm like, oh soft and strong. I hear that all the fucking time. Like that, you know, that's like another thing. I'm like, oh yeah, that's in there. Um, and that's maybe something that I would throw out in a class or something, but it's like going deeper and deeper and being fearless in what you're putting out there, as long as you, you know, it is spiritually aligned for you and it's like the message that you're meant to bring into the world. What do you guys think?

SPEAKER_00:

Gotta jump on that soft and strong thing. I feel like society has made that look a certain way and like be the quiet, the nurturing, soft in that light. But when I think of soft and strong, I think of how do we stand in our power with patience and gentle energy if someone's approaching us in a bad way, or if someone is feeling triggered by us, how can we keep that strength and be soft and approach them with compassion and love? And so there's so many ways that you could like look at soft and strong energy. And I think society has really upped women for what soft actually means. I feel like my perspective, soft is like, how can you look at that person with love no matter what they're coming at you with? Like, I'm like Rachel. I trigger the fuck out of people. I am a line four, which means a lot of my own growth and evolution is going to come through my relationships. And I have a gate that's literally the provoker. So I am also Django Rachel. And I've had a lot of situations, especially even this year, probably worse this year, actually, where I've triggered people. And old me used to be like, oh fuck, I did something wrong. I said something wrong. I'm not seeing this correctly. It's all me. I'm the problem. I'm too much. And this year I've learned to be like, okay, I see what I'm doing for you. I see I'm a mirror for you. And I'm gonna let you hold that because that's not mine to hold. I'm here to be that Jenga piece for you. That is my job. It hurts me sometimes. I don't know if you feel like that, Rachel, because like I no longer speak to some of these people and I don't want to, which is fine, but it still hurts me that they're likely walking around out there poo-pooing my name because I'm reflected something back to them, you know? So yeah, I've been leaning hard into soft and strong in that way, meeting these people that are struggling with me with compassion and grace. And that feels like strong feminine to me.

SPEAKER_02:

Oof, I love that because that's where I need to work on. Um like, well, when I'm when I'm challenged personally. I immediately always feel guilty. Oh my God. It's I feel awful about it. Or I used to feel awful about it because the same thing, I would, I would lose relationships along the way. And like I have nothing but love for those people in my heart. You know, like no matter what transpired in our relationship, like I know that at any point in life, knowing what these people have gone through, I would want to be met with compassion. So like maybe that is my job to do that. And I'm grateful to do that. But when I am challenged professionally, something goes up my spine. It's like it's like Hakate takes over me. It's like an energy sits me down and she's like, shut the fuck up and watch how I do this. And it's like I can't even, I don't know if you guys have ever seen me do it, but it's my my my spine gets straighter. It's the craziest thing. And but it doesn't feel angry and always works out well, but it's always such a I'm always so afraid. Like when it starts, I'm like, oh no, I'm sorry for what's gonna come out. Um, so I would love to try and be maybe a little bit more compassionate with those people. But when it's when I'm challenged professionally, it's usually from a place to either make me small, make me feel stupid, or like they're questioning what I do instead of allowing the energy of like, I'm an ancestral healer. People are like, Well, what's that? Like, okay, well, we talk about blah, blah, blah. Well, I don't have any trauma. Okay. Here's a cookie, and it's full of bullshit because so is that sentence, because that's bullshit, you know, and it's true, you know. So I would, I would, I would half of me is like, I would love to try and be a little bit more compassionate. But honestly, the other half of me is like, I don't view it as I know it's not disrespect, and I don't view it as disrespect, but when I'm challenged in a public space, because that's the only time it happens too. People don't challenge me on my one-on-ones. It's usually when I'm doing a group setting, and it's usually a masculine person who's like, and I'm like, I'm not the one. Like I growing up, Rachel was never the one. And then traumatized Rachel submitted and became the one. And now I'm not the one again. So like I'm not the one. But what where what used to hold me back, man? Like, it's a lot of it is like energy reading. I would anytime I would feel unsafe, I would not put myself out there, which is like, oh, the wind picked up as we talk about this. It means communication. Like, I've been able to do this my whole life and I would never bring it out because I was afraid. And then when Nicole asked that question, I was like, Oh, what holds me back? Like fear, judgment, relationships, toxicity, masculine energy. Because like I'm not afraid of men, but it's I didn't want to let this part of me out around the men. You know, it felt so unsafe. And then within the last six months, I'm like, that's not true. That's stupid. They're just they're just boys. It's fine. Um and so I'm realizing that's all just fear-based, and it's all fear-based of how I'm gonna be perceived. So once again, I'm gonna let them choke on it.

SPEAKER_04:

I don't know what I said, but I said that's so interesting, Rachel. Because um mine is kind of the opposite because I I have never, and this is definitely in my human design, I've never really given two shits about what other people think of me. I've always known exactly who I am, and if people aren't meant for me, it's totally fine. Um and I'm and I'm okay, and it doesn't really impact me. However, I compare the shit out of myself to other peers in the industry. And so, like for me, what holds me back is not being outside of the norm. And I feel like this is definitely a corporate thing that I need to undo because if you don't assimilate, if you don't fit in, you are not getting your money, you are not getting your pay raises. You have to learn how to play the game and play the game well. But a lot of the times the game is flawed and the game is inauthentic. And so for me, it's unraveling allowing myself to be who exactly I'm supposed to be, because my entire life I was always told to fit in a box. And I think I struggle with reclaiming my power because I am so different than everybody else I know in this space. And there's no one that can help me, no one that can lead me, no one that can show me the way. And so my entire fucking life, I have taken classes, I've had other people show me the way because that's I'm a projector, right? So I take existing systems and I make them more efficient. And I'm now at the place where the system has run out and I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to do. And so that's where I personally struggle with all of this is number one, inventing a new space in the first place. And then two, figuring out how to make that high integrity believable, trustable in the marketplace. And number three, to your point, Rachel, making sure that people even understand what the hell I'm doing because I'm so light years ahead of a lot of the existing work and space that's out there. And you've all heard me say, and I love mediums. So let me just put it out there. I love mediums, but everybody's a medium right now. And what I do cannot be defined by that one single label, Adrian and I go all the time about labels. Um, and so reinventing myself to me and reclaiming my power means finding a new space in the system that doesn't exist. And how do I market that? How do I sell that? How do I feed my family on that? And how do I make people understand what it is? Because it's not one thing, it's so many different things at once.

SPEAKER_00:

Wait, are all four of us feeling this too? We are right. That's another commonality because I I know Jess was, and I know I am. Literally, just this morning I'm driving, I'm like, I'm so fucking lonely in my field. I'm so lonely. I would love to have. I mean, yes, I have a wonderful, world-renowned priestess just 45 minutes away, and I'm different. And so, yes, I could go experience her to have the experience and to feel that, and still I'm different. And so, like, she doesn't feel like the right mentor for me. So that's yeah, that's interesting. And so you too, Rachel. Yes.

SPEAKER_02:

So, so much. It's it's been, but it's also this isolation spot I'm in is also probably an ancestral trauma response for the feminine in my family. So I'm able to lean into that and be like, okay, this is a neurodivergent trauma response. What are you, what are you, what are you looking for? Where can you find that in yourself? Where can you find that in the it you guys come to mind all of the time? And that's another thing I love about it is because when I go through something, I guarantee you at least one, if not all three of you have either experienced it or going through at the same time I am.

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Oh, I love that.

SPEAKER_04:

I love that so much because I think we probably within our own modalities have surpassed some of the best teachers possible. But now we have to lean on each other across the modalities to learn the commonalities. Um and the quote I I heard that came to mind while you were speaking, Adriana Rachel, was when you're ready, the teacher will appear. And when you're really ready, the teacher will disappear. Chill. I know it's wild. It's wild. Um, this is gonna be a fun journey for all of us.

SPEAKER_02:

It's also hard to communicate, though, at least for me, because A, I feel nuts. And sometimes I have a hard time putting it all together. And it's only when I really sit in meditation, when I'm very clear, when I've done all the things, that I'm like, I can see the pieces, I can see it all working. And I'm like, okay, I know this is all part of a bigger thing that I'm supposed to talk about, but then my neurodivergent kicks in and I'm like and all goes away.

SPEAKER_03:

What does your neurodivergent do again? Oh, look, a penny.

SPEAKER_02:

Oh, a piece of candy.

SPEAKER_04:

But but I have to reflect back because I've seen you all work, right? I've seen how much you've all grown in the past year and a few months. So what are you super fucking proud of? Like, where have you stepped into your power? Let's talk about that because it's hard. I mean, it's one step at a time. And I think this will be an ever long journey for us to define and reclaim our space. And then to your point, Adriana, there'll be people that come after us that copy, right, and and want to do what we do and we'll probably be the teachers, the master teachers at some point with everything that's happening and everything that we're going through right now. But where have you already started to showcase your power? And how has that been comfortable? How has that been uncomfortable? And I know, Jess, you in particular, I mean, with this retreat coming up uh at the end of December, how let's talk about that.

SPEAKER_01:

Yeah. Um so I don't know. I have so many thoughts on like things that have been said, but just to start there, I think um, yeah, doing workshops with all of you, um, and then putting together this retreat with the four of us um is kind of way outside like the safe structure um, you know, within my direct community, within my family structure, you know. Um and it's so I I'm getting, you know, confronted by people um about this. And initially, I mean, you know, depending on your level of relationship with someone, like there, there's like a pang there, and there's like, oh, like, oh, should I be doing this? Am is this bad? Um, but like I've certainly I'm gonna have to get really clear about that. And uh I'm like, yeah, no, you know, uh, me and Jesus are cool. We're like good. And, you know, I'm feeling just like more aligned than ever. And I'm I'm creating and developing deeper relationships than I've been able to do in the past. Um, so like I kind of mentioned before, it's like, you know, we're not gonna appeal to everybody. Um, but like it's like a death and rebirth cycle, right? Like cute doesn't cause a death and rebirth cycle. You know, when you step into your power, like it can be too intense for people, or it can it can create a shift in your life. But I think that's like really important to kind of break um break the patterns in our in our families and in ourselves and to kind of continue. I mean, we're all people who are continually evolving. And I think that's kind of what you're alluding to, Nicole, is like it's like, okay, like, well, what do you do when you don't feel like you have more resources to evolve? Right. I think it's like us coming together because we do, we're we we're similar, we're all very different as well. And um, we challenge each other. You guys challenge me all the time. Like, it's not just like a, it's okay, honey, you're doing great, you know, that's not the kind of like conversations that we have. So that's really beautiful. And I think it makes all of us level up. Um, and I think I was gonna say in response to what you said earlier, Rachel, that um my struggle has been with women, um, very specifically with women. Um, and I think that's you know, ancestral wounds, um, throat chakra stuff, um, just being burned by women over and over. Um and so this group in particular is very healing for me, um, since we all identify as women. Um, also um line four generator. I can put my head down and work, I can build community, and then I can be like, oh, have you met so-and-so? And then I just like shrink away. Like, would that be like the shadow side of line four, maybe? Um, and then uh also like neurodivergence coming into the picture, like learning more about that and just sort of masking and just being like, oh, okay, like this is how I'm supposed to play and this is what people want to hear. So I'm gonna do that. But it was really when I stepped into um offering my yoga teacher training that I was like, okay, like you really have to embody like what you truly believe and like be an example. And that is when it got worse in terms of people just feeling betrayed by people or feeling like people are out there talking shit about me. Um, all of those things like really happening and really causing me to be like, okay, but that's okay. Like this is who I am and like this is what I'm putting out in the world, and I feel good about that. I feel proud about that, and I feel powerful. Um, even though it it's hard sometimes and it does hurt. But um, yeah, I think becoming a teacher trainer and uh you know evolving into kind of the space that we're we're moving into together as a group would be how I feel powerful now.

SPEAKER_05:

Is that me next or Rachel? Yeah, go ahead.

SPEAKER_00:

No, you go, no, you go. I'm not ready. Are you for real? Because I can go.

SPEAKER_05:

Yeah, go.

SPEAKER_00:

Okay.

SPEAKER_02:

Um I love what I so agree about like the showing up authentically, like how you guys, you guys do challenge me. And it is so helpful because most again, most of the time, up until meeting you guys, most of the people I talk to are like a cookie ritual. Like I'm like, oh, you know, I see this, this cause is this. You guys are the people that hold me, and you're like, oh, okay, I see that, but have you considered this? Um, every single one of you have helped me step more authentically into my witchcraft. Like, I'm very much like I consider myself an ancestral witch. Like this is it's two sides of the same coin. And I I used to do things so intuitively, and I I still lived with so much shame for who I am as a person, which is probably why I apologize for everything. I'm just putting that together. Um I would and I I wouldn't consider what I did to be like witchcraft until one day Adriana's like, you just mentioned doing six different things in your morning routine that are witchy. And I was like, Oh shit, I do do that.

SPEAKER_00:

Really?

SPEAKER_02:

You never notice? Wait, what? Nope. I would incorporate them into my and then just forget and just be like, oh, everybody, I don't know.

SPEAKER_00:

I again everybody does these six rituals with their glamour magic and shit in the morning. Wait, you guys don't all masturbate to frequencies? What? Well, that one, yes.

SPEAKER_02:

You got me there. But you know, it's it's this I've been able to like when something hurts in my body, I think of Jess and I'm like, okay, my piriform is hurt. What does that mean? And like I I I follow the channel, which I learned from Nicole. You know, I'm like, I'm tapping into like for some reason learning human design and my cycle has been able to be like very flowy for me. It's been able to really stick in my mind. Um now I'm forgetting what the question was. Damn it, why'd I say good go?

SPEAKER_04:

Yeah, but you're killing it, right? I mean, coming seeing I think our first like would you call it a road opener? Yes. Um, that we brought together. And you brought the goods. Like you showed up with the candles and the herbs and the oil, and and you really own your shit in that's true, in that space, right? And I think there's some and it was really cute because you had, I think you had a piece of paper when you were reading out the different direct, were you with the different directions? And you were like, I don't know, like there was this like little bit of uncomfortable, but then as soon as you got through that hurdle, I mean, it was such a powerful activity. It was such like group event, right? Uh, team building for all of us that really transformed a lot of our results. And I think that's the key, Rachel. Is for you, and I don't know if this is true for all of us, but like taking that first step showed you how fucking powerful you are. And this is true. It's so funny you bring that. I remember that.

SPEAKER_02:

I've seen I was struggling with that, and I remember like reading it and being like, who are you standing in front of right now? Shut up and just do it. And I was like, okay, I can just do it. I'm at literally Jessica's house. Fine. You know, but it's that fear of like performing authentically for other people, and not even performing, but that fear of existing authentically around other people and the fear of being perceived off while I'm authentic around other people is like so scary. And now I don't give a shit. Like I just joined a new gym and I walk in, I'm like, yeah, I'm a witch. And they're like, what the fuck? I'm like, cool. Now you stay away from me. Or hire you. It's or or hire me. Yeah, I actually got a lot. People are very supportive, actually. People at that gym are very supportive. So shout out, shout out to them. Um, but it's it's yeah, you this it's reclaiming power has made me feel so much, it's made me fall in love with myself to a space where I don't tolerate disrespect across the board anymore. And I honestly thank the three of you for that.

SPEAKER_01:

It almost sounds like it's like a spiritual coming of age.

SPEAKER_02:

Yeah, fuck sweet 16. Hello, 40.

SPEAKER_04:

Yeah, for real. Isn't that something with like a Saturn return or something too?

SPEAKER_00:

I don't want to third you're in a sopposition, is what yeah, what she's in right now.

SPEAKER_04:

Got it.

SPEAKER_00:

All of you, yeah, except for you, except for me. But you're in the baby nodal return. I'm what? Aren't you in like a nodal return or something? I am, I'm in my nodal return, which is fucking me hardcore, not in the my best way, but like not the way no one wants to be fucked. Not to frequency music, no. Um, okay. So the original question was how well how have we changed this year, right? Or like, okay. How do you show up when you're full power, Adriana? So it this is really interesting for me to think about because over this past year, I have attended some really fucking epic events, which was literally on my my goals for this year to have epic events that I don't like have to pay out the notes for. I just get invited to, I don't have to force it. And that happened, which was amazing. It helped me build that trust muscle with the universe even deeper. Like, okay, this is correct for me. So it's instantly, well, not instantly, but it's supported. Um, and what is it's this the weirdest common theme that I've been finding? All the events that I uh that I go to are very, they're very like feminine. It's not like we just talk business. It is like we look eye to eye with people, we tell them what we see in their soul. Like, there's a lot of like that kind of stuff that we do. And everything that I tend with activities like that, the one word, I can't, I'm not even exaggerating this. The one word that every person used, the commonality when they look at me, when they feel my energy was powerful. And I was like, the fuck? Like, I did not there, there was no part of me that understood that. Even now I'm still like grappling with it. I think because I'm so in my head and I'm so not where I quote want to be. And a lot of that I equate to money, which I know is not what we're here to be about, but I'm also a tourist. Like, just gets it. Like, we need financial security. That's who we are. And also, I'm trying to learn how to claim that power without putting money on that label and like what that means for me. So that's my own bullshit. But it was also really, really helpful for me to see that other people they're reflecting back the work that I've done. This year, if anything, has been a year of like, holy shit, I've really changed. I have really started stepping into like who I. Even two days ago, my sister-in-law, she slept over after our Thanksgiving. And so it was just her and my husband and I up at night and she was just talking about, like, you know, asking more things about my how I was raised and all this stuff. She knows she's known everything about me for a long time. But we got deeper and she was like, I would have never guessed that with you and your parents, the way you guys interact and all of this. And I was like, I've done so much work. I've forgiven a lot. You know, my father is manic depressive, and my mom just like she literally can't fucking cope. And and all these things that came up, she was like, Holy shit, kudos to you. I can't even be in the same room with those kinds of people. And it was another moment of reflection for me of like standing in my power isn't just like me showing up in business and like reclaiming myself and like healing. It is literally like the everyday of like how I let people have certain boundaries with me and how I can exist around them without that meaning something about me. Not to say that like there aren't times when people have to be cut out. There are. And I think my parents are wonderful with my kids. And like there's there's nothing that I fully need to cut them out for, but I have forgiven a lot. And that's just that's definitely a certain type of power. So it's been a whole fucking year of reflection for me of how much work I've done in the universe being like, just take a seat for a little bit, just fucking exist, which is not second nature for me.

SPEAKER_04:

I can see and feel the power. I think that's the I I love that reflection, Adriana, because there are so many clients of mine, or even practice circle people that I end up partnered with, and I can fucking feel their power. Like I can feel their power and I can feel how little they've tapped into it. Yeah.

SPEAKER_03:

Right, right.

SPEAKER_04:

That's I mean, you you're like 50%. Okay, that's generous. No, you're like 50%, 45 spirit saying. Um, but there's just I love that word for you, and I love that journey for you. And I think we can be so uncomfortable with our own power. Like we can be, it's so uncomfortable to to think about to your point, Adriana, like where we've been been from, like, what have we been through? What's the family that we've been raised in? And and for all of us, all of us, where we're going is nothing like where we started from. Welcome to 2025, right? But overall with the family lineage too. And I know a lot of my patterns and beliefs come from my own family and upbringing. Um, that's all I'm gonna say there. I don't want to go down that rabbit hole. But for me personally, where um I've come to step into my own power this year is showing up to, for example, the retreat and just letting spirit lead and just doing these really powerful fucking activations, um, starting to not play small in my readings with clients, not um starting to build new programs and trust spirit. Because I think here's the thing for me is that I think I'm like like you, Adrian, and like all of you, I don't fully trust my whole power yet. And it's funny because my word that consistently comes up is trust. Every it's been three years of trust. Um, people telling me to trust, trust, trust. I don't trust my own power. So I let spirit lead me into my power. Because that's the only way I'm gonna release control and show up for myself. But when I do, it's so powerful. And I remember at the retreat um freaking out because that activation that I gave everybody in Mexico took so much out of me that we did a day trip the next day and I was toast and I couldn't show up to a couple of events because I just needed to recuperate. And one of one of the retreat owners asked me, like, hey, where are you? And I was like, spiraling, because I was like, I don't know. Am I supposed to be? Am I not supposed? I was literally spiraling next to the beach when it's like 95 degrees in in paradise in Mexico because I was concerned about whether the person running the retreat was pissed at me for not showing up to these things. And I I think you said I think Adriana, you said something like, Well, you know, are you just nervous that you didn't show up the way that you wanted to for that? And I think the difference was I was like, nope, fuck no, it was fucking amazing. I knew it was amazing. And I think when it comes to owning your own power, sitting in your own energy and your own reflection of how did I feel in that moment? How did I feel doing this? Like outside of the external circumstances and energy of everybody else involved, how did I feel in that moment? And the answer is fucking powerful. And only after that does the societal norm start to weigh in. Do the opinions and energy of others start to weigh in? And that's how I know I'm on the right path because that is just extra noise. I need to learn how to deal with. Because to everyone's point, there will always be naysayers. There will always be people that want to put me down. Crab mentality, everybody. Have you heard that one? You put crabs in a bucket, put one crab in a bucket, they can all get out, or that crab can get out, no problem. Put any more than one crab in a bucket, the other crabs will drag that crab down. No one will get out and they will all die. That's crab mentality. And so that's what we are up against within. I know Rachel's Rachel's in awe.

SPEAKER_00:

Is that is that for real? That's a real real fucking white.

SPEAKER_04:

Yeah. And so I think that's what we need to think about is this crab mentality. And as I have to say it like this, the shift happens, whether it's the new year, whether it's the 3D to 5D, whatever this is, as this shift happens, you're going to have people that want to stay in the norm in the comfort. And they they are gonna want to, they are going to be so solid and so real and so raw about their version of reality being the truth. But our real version of reality looks very different. And we need to separate out what their reality is versus what our reality is and trust that they're both real, but we don't have to live in each other's reality or space anymore. And I think the more that we reclaim our power, the more we realize which path is right for us and which path is left for the few to fight for the scraps about and the and the thing full of crabs, right? It's not our fucking problem. And so I think I'm gonna challenge all of you, all the listeners, to really think about how have you stepped up to your power this year? How have you shown up in your full authentic self this year? How are you going to pay homage to this new higher vibration version of you so that you continue to show up as that new authentic self as self? And we, the weather being witches, will be here with fucking open arms if nobody else accepts you. I absolutely promise you that.

SPEAKER_01:

I think too, to our listeners, if you're having trouble tapping into where you feel powerful or where you've stepped into your power, it's important to ask yourself where are you performing and where are you hiding? Because that's going to show you where you're meant to grow and how you can access that power.

SPEAKER_04:

I love that.

SPEAKER_02:

And also just be like graceful with yourself. You know, sometimes I remember like if people would ask me like where I stood in my power, be like, fucking nowhere, terrible. But sometimes if you can just tuck and roll and get up every single day and not see your name in the Irish comics, aka the obituaries, then like that's great work. Have you never heard that before?

SPEAKER_00:

I don't know what Rachel did this morning, but I love her energy and all her fucking metaphors.

SPEAKER_03:

The Irish comics, you said. Yeah, that's what my grandfather used to call the obituaries. I wonder if that's why I am the way I am.

SPEAKER_02:

But honestly, though, like just sometimes just be very graceful with yourself. And when you're looking at your life, don't look at it through like your lens. Don't be like, where have I shown up as a powerful person? Look at the last year from an outside party perspective. Look at your lens from someone that be like, oh, it's this person that I love so much. They did an amazing job. You're gonna literally, if you're in a negative space, you won't be able to see that. But if you can pull your perspective back, you will be able to see where you stood in your power.

SPEAKER_00:

All I can think about now are crab rangoons. Does anybody else want crab rangoons? Krabby, crab it, crabby, Irish potatoes. Yeah.

unknown:

What?

SPEAKER_00:

You Irish women are weird. Uh yeah, there's, I feel like this is a conversation that could go on and on and on and on forever. Um, but what's really extra exciting about the timing of this conversation is we're just a few weeks out from hosting our own sacred feminine retreat for the first time ever. I mean, it's like a mini retreat, it's like a half day event. Um, but it's still it is a retreat. It is a retreat from the world that is chaotic and everything right now, and you get to just come into this space with us. And by the time this airs, um, it'll probably be completely sold out because we only have a couple of tickets left. But I'm just like really excited that this conversation has come up before it so that we can hold each other accountable as we're planning it. Of like, but does that really make you feel like you're fully in your power? Or is this just like a safe way to play it? Rachel's already laughing. She's like, well, they're gonna be hard on me. But it's gonna be fucking epic. Imagine if all four of us show up unapologetically and give it like everything that our soul and our body and our energy really wants to give it. Holy shit.

SPEAKER_02:

We're gonna short circuit things.

SPEAKER_04:

Like we're getting into my house. Yeah. That's why it's gonna be in person.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, so I'm really excited. So stay tuned for more Weather Vane Witches events because I know that they're gonna be happening. But is there anything else on anyone's mind or heart right now that they feel like they want to close this with?

SPEAKER_04:

So good. I just want to say thank you to everybody for being open and vulnerable and owning your space. Like I can't wait to see what power we all bring into the new year. And I just thank you, thank you. You know me, I don't do emotional. So I'm just gonna say you you all fucking rock. She doesn't do emotional yet.

SPEAKER_00:

No break her eventually.

SPEAKER_04:

We already have. This is my limit. This is my 99%.

SPEAKER_02:

This was awesome. This was a great conversation. I really needed it. I appreciate you guys so much.

SPEAKER_00:

Yeah, love you. Beautiful. Love you guys. Thanks for being here. Love you.

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